I know that I have been missing in action but I really wanted these past few weeks to settle myself. I wanted to feel the joy of finally living in my new place and keep it to myself for a while. I love coming home, throwing down my purse, kicking off my shoes, pouring a nice glass of wine and getting mentally lost watching HGTV. My new place is beyond fabulous! Not just physically but how I feel when I walk in. I love just sitting at home and taking in the peace and quiet. I haven’t had that in almost a year and I cherish this time tremendously. My friend/roommate and I have varying schedules. I work ALOT of overtime so I’m usually gone by 7am and home by 7pm and he works long hours and is on call at the hospital several days a week. It works out perfectly.
Work. Oh work has gotten 80% better. I took my vacation 2 weeks ago and when I got back I was informed that I was still in the same department but I would be answering to a different supervisor. Apparently they held a meeting while I was away and my new supervisor demanded I be on his team. You see my old supervisor was dealing with alot of personal issues ( her father just passed away, she’s divorcing etc…) and alot of her negative energy was targeted at me and others. They knew I was at my breaking point and I was “thisclose” to calling it quits. I really think they feared I wouldn’t return from my vacation lol. But as I sat at my desk that Monday morning new supervisor ran in with the biggest smile on his face and said ” Your with me now. No more CR. I wanted you. You do great work. I really wanted you”. I cannot even put into words the amount of stress that was lifted from this little body of mine. Now when I go into work I feel confident, I haven’t fucked up once and I leave with a smile EVERYDAY. It’s amazing how other people’s negativity can impact your sense of self so deeply.
And fun. These past two weeks have been the most fun I’ve had in a long time. I’m enjoying walking around my new city. Hitting the beach with my roomie and catching up with old friends. Once a month a few girlfriends and I have a ladies night. Since everyone is a little strapped for cash we decided to hold it at my new place. We had a ball! I haven’t laughed, eaten and drank so much in a long time. Everyone brought a dish or drinks and we just talked, danced, took pics and down right acted a god damned fool until 2am.
With all I’ve been through in the past year I would tend to forget how pleasurable life can be. That it’s OK to come off of survival mode and allow yourself to just live in the what-ifs. These two weeks have been such a joy and I’m really hoping it lasts.
Till next time…
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