Fear of Being Lost.

I have this gut wrenching, can’t breath, I’m sweating my Dominican Blow out out,  oh my god I’m gonna die panic attack every time I get lost.  Or feel like I’m going to get lost.  It started when I was a wee one.  I was so gun ho about joining the Girl Scouts in elementary [...]

Ex Lovers Always Come Back

Ever had an ex-lover try to come back?  Sometimes the break up was mutual because you both needed time & space to figure things out.  Or you gave that person an ultimatum and they finally realized how awesome you are and  came running back.  But those examples are not my situation.  Oh no!  My ex [...]

Moving To A New Town Baby!

I am finally moving out of my family’s home.  A great friend from L.A. and I have been searching for the perfect place for months. Last sunday we finally found it.  A sweet oversized 2bed. 2 bath condo in dowtown Stamford, C.T.  It’s walking distance to all the wonderful night life but situated on a [...]

Work…It Just Keeps Getting Worse.

I’m tired.  I feel defeated.  Today had to be one of the worst days at work.  Every day I walk in I feel like a failure.  Granted what I do now is a very small part of what I have done in my field for almost 10 years.  But somehow things at work are just [...]

Sometimes All You Have Is A Mattress

I have just spent the past 20 minutes looking at Los Angeles apartments on craigslist.  Even though I’m back in New York it’s just something I do as a reminder that I have to finish what I started here to get back there.  I look at the old neighborhoods I’ve lived in and frown as [...]

90 Day Sex Fast **Update**

Today is day 90 of my 90 day sex fast!  I am so overjoyed that I did it.  I’ve proven alot of things to myself throught this experience.  I’ve proven that I can complete something. Especially because I feel like I haven’t had a good foundation for the past few months.  It has also proven [...]

On A Sex Fast

Today is day 25 of my sex fast.  I had decided weeks ago that this is something I needed to do for myself.  I’m no longer interested in casual sex.  Never really was.  I always felt empty afterwards.  Not like in a “I feel used” empty but rather a “I wish he’d get up and [...]

Had To Turn Down A Threesome

Saturday night I was propositioned by a good male friend and his friend.  Now my good male friend (lets call him Mr. Horny) and I have talked about threesomes before.  Somewhere in the very far past I must have told him that I’ve had fantasies of me with two men.  Call me a selfish lover [...]

Lazy Sunday Thoughts Part Deux

Dear Gary,
Yes today is a perfect day to snuggle.  Just not with you.  I know that the snow & cold has you feeling all warm & snuggly inside but I haven’t seen you in four years.  Those 2 dates we had years ago didn’t make me want to snuggle then and I still don’t now.  So [...]

This Is What Greed Does!!!!

I am so disgusted with the horrific news of black friday.  A Walmart employee lost his life because of greed!  I cannot seem to get over this.  My heart hurt when I woke up this morning to hear the news.  He died.  A pregnant woman miscarried from the stampede and there were shootings at a kids store [...]