Ex Lovers Always Come Back

Ever had an ex-lover try to come back?  Sometimes the break up was mutual because you both needed time & space to figure things out.  Or you gave that person an ultimatum and they finally realized how awesome you are and  came running back.  But those examples are not my situation.  Oh no!  My ex [...]

He Read My Personal Blog!

I’ve been found out. Uncovered. Revealed.  Stripped bare.
Last night a friend/former lover of mine told me he found my blog.  Not this one.  I have a very personal blog that is specifically about my old relationship with the ex-fiance and the warning signs to look out for in abusive relationships etc…  Well he found it.  I [...]

Lazy Sunday Thoughts Part Deux

Dear Gary,
Yes today is a perfect day to snuggle.  Just not with you.  I know that the snow & cold has you feeling all warm & snuggly inside but I haven’t seen you in four years.  Those 2 dates we had years ago didn’t make me want to snuggle then and I still don’t now.  So [...]

Bigger Than My Body Gives Me Credit For

 
For the past two days I have been in a funk.  It was so deep that I felt empty, alone and scared.  I pretty much slept these past two days away and barely came from under the covers to eat.  The reality of my new life hit me hard.  Not that it’s horrible.  Not by a [...]

This Is What Verbal Abuse Looks Like

 
This morning I opened two emails from the ex-fiance.  He had stopped with the nasty emails for the last two weeks. The more he tries to break my spirit the happier I become.  Below are the one’s I received this morning.  They are mild compared to the one’s he sent when we first broke up.  They [...]

Ready To Date Yet? I Don’t Know.

 
I have a semi date/lunch thingy this wednesday.  “S” is someone that I have known for about 3 years.  We lived in L.A. at the same time and have both recently moved to New York.  “S” has had feelings since we’ve known each other but I had just started dating the ex-fiance by that time.  [...]

No Other Shoe, Working & Still Simply Happy

 
I have been waiting for the other shoe to drop.  Since leaving the ex-fiance I had been expecting to feel sad or depressed or to be crying my eyes out, but I haven’t.  Well that’s not completely true.  Two days ago I went grocery shopping alone and a slight sadness hit me because he and [...]

Coming Full Circle

 
I have a varacious appetite for the written language.  Those who know me well can attest to this.  I have been a lover of words since I could read and write.  I love putting pen to paper or fingers to keyboard and seeing where my mind takes me.  Sometimes it’s to deep and dark places [...]

Living Happily & Healthy In New York

 
I am finally settled in New York.  Kinda sorta anyway.  My plan is to stay with my family for the next year.  Save and invest my money like I have been doing and figure out where I want to go after that.  Will I move back to Los Angeles? Maybe.  I miss it already.  But [...]

This Made Me Feel Better Today

So the ex-fiance has been harassing me by email for days.  Hurtful and utterly repugnant emails.  I’ve been trying to stay positive and let his words roll off my back.  Then this morning I came across this video again.  I just love me some B. Scott!!!  His jubilant personality just lifts my spirit every time.  [...]