Fear of Being Lost.

I have this gut wrenching, can’t breath, I’m sweating my Dominican Blow out out,  oh my god I’m gonna die panic attack every time I get lost.  Or feel like I’m going to get lost.  It started when I was a wee one.  I was so gun ho about joining the Girl Scouts in elementary [...]

Ex Lovers Always Come Back

Ever had an ex-lover try to come back?  Sometimes the break up was mutual because you both needed time & space to figure things out.  Or you gave that person an ultimatum and they finally realized how awesome you are and  came running back.  But those examples are not my situation.  Oh no!  My ex [...]

Engaged After 6 Months

No not me! Not by a long shot.  I’m not even dating.  I just got news that a guy friend from L.A. has proposed to his girlfriend of 6 months.  They went to high school together like 10 years ago but were never friends.  Is it just me or is this shit weird?  I don’t [...]

Home, Work & Fun

I know that I have been missing in action but I really wanted these past few weeks to settle myself.  I wanted to feel the joy of finally living in my new place and keep it to myself  for a while.  I love coming home, throwing down my purse, kicking off my shoes, pouring a [...]

Moving To A New Town Baby!

I am finally moving out of my family’s home.  A great friend from L.A. and I have been searching for the perfect place for months. Last sunday we finally found it.  A sweet oversized 2bed. 2 bath condo in dowtown Stamford, C.T.  It’s walking distance to all the wonderful night life but situated on a [...]

Work…It Just Keeps Getting Worse.

I’m tired.  I feel defeated.  Today had to be one of the worst days at work.  Every day I walk in I feel like a failure.  Granted what I do now is a very small part of what I have done in my field for almost 10 years.  But somehow things at work are just [...]

Sometimes All You Have Is A Mattress

I have just spent the past 20 minutes looking at Los Angeles apartments on craigslist.  Even though I’m back in New York it’s just something I do as a reminder that I have to finish what I started here to get back there.  I look at the old neighborhoods I’ve lived in and frown as [...]

90 Day Sex Fast **Update**

Today is day 90 of my 90 day sex fast!  I am so overjoyed that I did it.  I’ve proven alot of things to myself throught this experience.  I’ve proven that I can complete something. Especially because I feel like I haven’t had a good foundation for the past few months.  It has also proven [...]

Career Fear

So I’m scared. There are a few moments in my life where I’ve acted out of fear. I dropped an honors English class because I was the only student of color and felt uncomfortable. Even though I scored an 11 out of 12 on my placement test and was personally asked by the head of [...]

On A Sex Fast

Today is day 25 of my sex fast.  I had decided weeks ago that this is something I needed to do for myself.  I’m no longer interested in casual sex.  Never really was.  I always felt empty afterwards.  Not like in a “I feel used” empty but rather a “I wish he’d get up and [...]